I love everyone's wild card entries this time! A lot of people wrote about what they want for christmas, and some wrote about some weird "phenomenon" they possess or have experienced. I think I am going to kind of use this entry as a journal, LiveJournal style.
My life has been really crazy lately. I don't know what it is, or how to fix it. It just seems like nothing id going the way I planned or the way I wanted it to go. I hate this semester. I have all these classes that I could care less about. And I am someone who likes to give 110% percent. I just don't know what is up with me. I hope that next semester is better.
Work, work, work. It seems like all i do is work. And I think a lot of people here live in this dream world where students don't need to work. I have to work! All my loans are in my name. My parents don't pay for my schooling. And I don't think I would want them to. I would love to quit work so I could focus more on homework. But I have bills to pay, and I have to eat, so what do I do, quit school? I know it has to be this way right now, but it just doesn't seem worth it. I want to do both, and I am doing both, it is just killing me.
And now my boyfriend was activated. He leaves for Iraq next month for 2 years. What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to say? We have been together for 2 and a half years.... do I end it? Do I wait two years? I have no idea what to do.
It just seems like everything is falling down around me. I know it will get better, but it is just really blinding me right now. So much that I can't see the good things. But it is almost over.. we have 15 days until Christmas break, and hopefully I will be able to rest, work, save up money, and spend the last Christmas with my boyfriend for the next two years.