December 4, 2004

Love....who needs it.

Ok. So I haven't taken the time to blog for myself in a really long time. I usually mix in a little personal entries, but as of late I have been staying away from those. Well now I'm going for it. And so if you want to read about my ever evolving love woes please continue on, otherwise it might be best if you wait to read my next entry. With the last week before finals starting on Monday and Christmas on the Hill on Saturday there are sure to be many.

Three weeks ago I broke up with my boyfriend of a month and a half. "Big deal!" some of you might be thinking, but to me it is. You see we were friends for the longest time (a year and a half) and just randomly one night I told him that I liked him. You see I had mentioned to him that I was tired of everyone seeing me as a sister, and he said he felt the same way and somehow it just slipped out of my fingers (we were chatting on aim) that I liked him and had for a while. He seemed kinda shocked at first and then he wrote back that he wished I would have told him sooner. When I asked why he said to me that "Because sometimes feelings are mutual." Things went from there. We started dating and I was so amazingly happy it wasn't even funny. We were both very busy a lot of the time so the time we did get to spend together was great! We did a lot of watching movies and just hanging out, which was fine. And then about a month ago we made plans to go to the movies off campus. It was a big deal since we didn't usually do it, but his car had other ideas. It didn't start and we ended up just hanging out on campus yet again, but it was sooo much fun. I haven't had that much fun in a long time. Then Sunday things got weird he stopped talking to me and didn't really want to hang out anymore. Monday night he asked me to hang out with him and we did, but it wasn't the same. He was distant, cut off. Then, when I couldn't take it anymore I made him talk to me and it was all over. It happened so fast that it didn't really hit me until Thursday that we weren't together anymore. He said he still wanted to be good friends, but since then we haven't said more than ten words to one another. I have started to have these crazy dreams about him and I. I can't really seem to make them stop. I know that things will get better with time, but time is one thing that I don't have. Only God seems to know, and he reveals his meanings in mysterious ways...

Posted by Tiffany Brattina at December 4, 2004 9:07 PM

I'm sorry that amazing heart on your sleeve has to undergo heartbreak... my sympathies.

Posted by: Dennis G. Jerz at December 5, 2004 12:00 AM

Tiffany, Tiffany... If only you'd gotten over me first, dating during the rebound just doesn't work. :D



Posted by: Andrew at December 5, 2004 2:18 AM

Andrew you dork. That's not funny. Besides where have you been?

Thanks Dr. Jerz. Life is hard, especially when you are trying to find yourself. I've come a long way, but I still have a ways to go.


Posted by: Tiffany at December 5, 2004 11:56 AM

Don't worry, Tiffany, I'm sure you'll find someone else who can make you forget about the whole situation. (If only people could be more sympathetic *ahem*) q:

Posted by: Evan at December 6, 2004 3:07 PM
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