February 25, 2005
Did You Ever...
Look! My "Did You Ever..." moments are back! I know you are all so excited, I can see you dancing in your seats. It's been awhile- I just haven't had the time to blog for fun.
Anyway, did you ever worry that all your emotions are just going to spill out oneday without notice? Let me clarify- I'm the sort of girl that keeps everything inside. My anger (for the most part...well...sometimes), resentment, love (that's too strong of a word), etc. It isn't like I don't show any emotions at all- if I didn't I would not have friends! But the big things I've learned to keep inside through experience (my big mouth has gotten me into trouble and any admission of love has ended badly in the "I'm going to be alone the rest of my life with 50 cats" way). Yet it isn't exactly a good thing to keep everything inside all the time. One day I know I'm just going to lose it. The flood gates will open and I'm just going to let people have it- for the good or for the bad. So if you see me ranting and raving on like a crazed person someday kindly pull me aside, lock me in a closet, and leave me there until I've stopped before I really mess things up. :)
Posted by VanessaKolberg at February 25, 2005 09:06 AM
There's nothing wrong with being reserved. At least, I don't think so. If you wear your heart on your sleeve all the time, people will start to take advantage of you, in my experience.
Besides, it's fun sometimes to keep people guessing. :)
Don't worry, Vanessa. If I'm around when this sudden outburst takes place, I'll be sure to confine you.
I really wish I did a better job of keeping my thoughts to myself. Very often I'll start spouting out everything, only to end up feeling uneasy about it later...
Chris, I highly doubt people are guessing about me. It's more of a "Oh, that curly girl over there? Yeah, I don't care" sort of attitude I'm sure.
Thank you Valerie. I'm glad I have someone to count on helping confine me to a closet. Haha.
Nessa, I know just how you feel. I had days just like that. Like Chris said there's nothing wrong with being reserved. Just don't keep things bottled in to the point you are about to burst. What I do when I feel any emotion no matter what it maybe anger, love, etc. is I write it down and turn it into a poem. That might not work for you, but find something you are interested in and let off yout steam. You look like you are into fashion, maybe you can find something in that area.
Thanks Ashley. I am a person who keeps things all bottled up though, so maybe I should try doing *something* to get them out. With fashion? Hmmmm...I'm pretty handy with a sewing machine- I might be making a lot of purses soon...haha.
Nessa, you'd be super surprised at how empowered you feel when you express your emotions. Even if it's something small like yelling at the drive-thru guy for putting onions on your double cheeseburger when you expressly said NO ONIONS. Just an example, haha! That's one thing I've learned these past couple years w/ all of my family troubles...tell people how you feel, it really does help the situation. If nobody knows how you feel then they can't do anything to solve the problem. I've resorted to writing letters if I don't have the guts to say something in person. When you write a letter it forces the person to listen to you without interruption.
Love is a touchy subject, you'll learn the ways or how to express it, or not, with experience. Everybody's heart gets broken, but it's all a learning experience.
You're an awesome girl, Nessa. If you feel the need to express yourself, don't second guess, JUST DO IT. You'll get used to it the more you do it! =)
Thank you Stormy. Long time no blog together huh? Haha. Thanks though, that was really nice.
I still feel bad for all those people that are going to get it though...ha.
Its ok Nessa! Just let it all out someday! it will make you feel alot better about things and you'll be like "whew that felt good" but dont worry if we see you yelling at some random stranger on the street we'll pull you away and keep you sane!