April 1, 2004

Dress Baggage

A navy suit. White-collared blouse. Meticulously curled, though slightly mussed curls, an umbrella, bookbag, purse, and head full of facts, figures, emotion, and doubts. Today was presentation day in my seminar class. I spoke too long again...but I received wonderful feedback from my peers about my voice and content. Sometimes, I really don't know if they are just being nice to spare me of my stinkiness or if they really mean what they are saying to me. I hope I am just thinking about this too much...

Stress before, stress during, stress after. I don't know why I am always so crazed on these days, but I am. I love to speak in front of people. I love talking to a crowd, but the baggage, both internal and external of living up to my own expectations, seem to weigh even heavier than the assignment itself.

I am optimistic about the end of this semester, however. Only 3 more research papers, website, a presentation, French workbook, finals and portfolio. I think I am going to be all right.

I hope I will be better prepared at the conclusion of this semester than the last...no dress-up day, ballgown or otherwise (and I love gowns), would have made me feel better this past fall.

I make my solemn blogger vow to not lose control this time around, though looking at that list above does make me feel like a burro dressed in dry-clean only navy.

Posted by Amanda Cochran at April 1, 2004 6:13 PM

I'm sure you were wonderful, dearie. You always under estimate yourself--you KNOW you're fabulous. Wish I could've seen you.. ttyl.

Posted by: Karissa at April 1, 2004 9:06 PM

Thanks, Karissa, you don't know how much that means to me. And who is the fab friend? You--I can't say that enough.

Posted by: Amanda at April 1, 2004 11:26 PM

*grin* thank you, dearest. I hope I'll see you over break...

Posted by: Karissa at April 2, 2004 9:05 PM

You looked great and it seems to me that you did great! You are one of my friends that has the most self-confidence among themselves. Hold that close toward yourself because like myself, I don't have that possession sometimes. You are such a smart girl and talented.

I know how you feel about the last of the semester. Stess that is carried among it as well. I could post a blog every minute of the day with as much stress as I have. At least our second Spring break is about to arrive and I think every single college student at SHU needs it.

Posted by: Firefighter Chica at April 4, 2004 2:16 PM
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