April 4, 2004

Happy Chaos

"Hello, County Market"
"Hi, this is Amanda, can I speak with the manager?"
"Sure, one minute"
Elevator Music. Me, whispering 'Calm Down.'
"Hi, this is the manager."
"Hi, Amanda here. I just wanted to tell you that I need a leave of absence for the next month."

Yes, folks. That's right. I have taken a leave of absence from County Market, my self-proclaimed hell hole, until the second weekend in May--after finals and all of my madness has ended. Though I will finish out this weekend, I will be free on the weekends after Easter to work...or play (not likely).

Something had to go for awhile. I am not Superwoman. Gosh, it hurts to admit that but so true. I think I had my priorities all screwed up. Moms and sisters are really wonderful and brutal in situations such as this. Thank you both for screaming at me.

So now, in my upcoming chaos, I will be happy having a two-day three-night weekend instead of a six-day seven-night work week. Though my class assignments lie in heavy black on my dry-erase board, they do not weigh so heavily on my heart anymore. I am going to get through this semester. I am going to do all of them well. I am going to survive. (Insert Destiny's Child "Survivor" here).

If you can't tell, I panicked this weekend. But I am okay. Better. Elated. Relieved.

Posted by Amanda Cochran at April 4, 2004 5:45 PM

All of us "perfectionists" have to get rid of a few things once in awhile. We're both insane, but that's okay. I still think you're wonderful. I'm glad you're thinking about yourself for once... God knows I'm no good at that... but getting better ;^)

Posted by: Karissa at April 4, 2004 6:04 PM

Sometimes I think I am thinking too much about myself: my assignments, my work, my jobs. I feel so selfish, but I guess you have to be, you have to have an education.

I am feeling better and better about my decision. I am tired of always being the one that gets the stuff dumped upon--usually crap. I am not a toilet. And I will not continue to act like one.

Posted by: Amanda at April 4, 2004 11:16 PM

"I am not a toilet." -- Amanda Cochran, April 4, 2004.

When I read that, I fairly flushed with pride.

Posted by: Dennis G. Jerz at April 5, 2004 8:52 PM

*giggle* that's really funny, Dr. Jerz. :^)

Posted by: Karissa at April 6, 2004 10:05 AM
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