“Lily you are such a pretty child,” except for Miss Jennings at church, was legally blind. This line has so much power and summaries the feeling had as a little child. “I worried so much about how I looked and whether I was doing things right, I felt half the time I was impersonating a girl instead of being a girl.” A girl without a mother couldn’t find her place in the world and had to look to other girl to know how to be a woman.
Posted by OlanrewajuKayode at May 4, 2005 10:01 PM | TrackBackI can relate to what you are saying; all the self-consciousness, the constant, flickering change of mind - I should act this way, this is the way girls are, no wait, how about I do it like this instead... or maybe like that...
it all becomes actually quite complex and many-layered the more I think about it, and the more I try to put it into words.