January 21, 2004

No excuses, no regrets...

Whats left to say when the mind is at loss for words? Whats left to do when the heart is being torn in two? The mind is the logic, the heart the hopeless romantic....both full of good reasoning, however, only one can win out in the end, and let me tell you, its usually the heart.

I don't know what to say. What is there that hasn't been said already? Ive poured my heart out on the line, I don't see how i can be anymore honest and open. I feel as though i am fighting a losing battle, fear is winning in this war, or perhaps it has already won. Ive forgiven once, im hurting twice, id be willing to give it a third chance. I can only fight for so long to hold onto something that wants to be let go. Im being pushed away, i know the gesture, ive done it to people. Subconsciously, everyone wants to be fought for, even when they state otherwise, which answers my question about whether or not I should fight or give up. I don't know whether it would be considered a good thing that my father told me to never give up and not to be a quitter. Did he mean in all situations of life, even those deemed hopeless? I don't know, but i do know that i can't help but fight. Sadly, however, I can only fight for so long. Im struggling, to stay upright, falling all the while. Quickly, Quickly, grab me and hold on, before I fall completely and am lost forever...I live by no excuses, no regrets, ive got no regrets, ive said everything i wanted to say, theres only one thing ive got left to ask: What the hell is your excuse?

Posted by Lori Rupert at January 21, 2004 01:37 AM

WOW, This is the best expression of what I've felt in the past 4 month. Amazing. Except I would add one thing at the end which is "and now I'm done"

Posted by: Igor at June 19, 2004 05:13 AM
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