Jerz: Am Lit II (EL 267): Jones, ''I Want to Live''
Announcing cancer is like death sentence. Especially for Mrs. Wilson because her husband died for cancer. Mrs. Wilson coild not see her situation is real. Having cancer was too painful to her. Mrs. Wilson described that it was easier to do that if you pretended that it wasn't real, if you pretended it was all on TV.
Mrs. Wilson lost being female because she had breast and uterus cancer. She coundn't enjoy normal life because she couldn't eat. Diarrhea in the bed was the worst humiliation. Moreover, tests at the hospital wiped out the last of her physical and emotional stamina. Living became pain.
Mrs. Wilson thought nobody really cared about her. She thought that people just came to the hospital and gave her flowers and various intrusions at all hours. These people really don't care whetehr she is really sick or not. But Mrs. Wilson realized she needed love in order to fight against cancer. The doctors seemed not human being because they just do thier job, and it wasn't really a big deal if their paitents die. The medicine makes her sick. Love is only relif for her.
Nobody wants to die because people are afraid fo death. Mrs. Wilson also didn't want to die. She wanted to live. (I guess that's why the title is I Want to Live!) But I think she was relifed when she died. She didn't need to fight against cancer anymore, and she might able to meet her husband.
Her son-in-law asked to Mrs. Wilson "What does it feel like? Does it feel like a hangover? Worse than a hangover? Not like a hangover?" My mother had cancer and I often went to the hospital to see her. But I think I think I did not understand her how it is like having cancer. If I have cancer, I think I will feel differently.
Question 1
Do you think Mrs. Wilson had Will to Live or tired of cancer treatment?
Question 2
Do you think Mrs. Wilson was relieved when she died?
Jerz: Am Lit II (EL 267): McBride, The Color of Water Miracle at St. Anna
Reading the story, I felt the government was forcing to people to hate Germans. The black American soliders had no reason to hate Germans. War destories everything. People, nature, art, etc.
I woder if Arturo wasn't white, whether Train treated him differently. I think Train would treat him differntly because he might be thinking white privilege (white poeple are better than color people. etc)unconstiously even though he didn't like white people.
Jerz: Am Lit II (EL 267): Proulx, ''The Half-Skinned Steer''
The story remains me my grandparents because they used to have about 15 or 20 pigs. When I went to their house, I sometimes feeded these pigs. My mother told me that my grandfather used to sell some pigs to butchers. My mother didn't llike it because she thought it was cruel. Tin Head did skinning his cows. I wonder he thought anything about skinning his cows. He had dinner after skinning. I don't think I can eat anything after skinning.
The story doesn't have " " (I don't know the name) when people talk. It was sometimes hard to read for me.
Jerz: Am Lit II (EL 267): Houston, ''The Best Girlfriend You Never Had''
I didn't understnad What Leo was thinking about her. He said "I love you." Then he added a comment "I mean, in the good way." I felt like he was avoiding making eye contact with her because he often looked something else, not her. On page 788, "I can't help you," Leo says, and squints his eyes against the mist in the air. He could have told the sentense looking at her.