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Remembering September 11th

September 11, 2004

Doc Warns Of 9/11 Anniv Trauma

"Q: What is ‘anniversary reaction’?

Dr Parikh : Many people go through ' anniversary reaction', in which around the date of the incident, they feel more stress, more emotional distress, and sometimes this triggers off significant trauma, and suicidal attempts."

(Dr. Samir Parikh, MD, India Times)

I was pouring through my old journal entries today to find what I had written about September 11th. Even then, that day seemed unreal. I think it is important for Americans to remember vividly the horror of that day. We must not let it turn into something that feels as though it came from a memory, a movie. For most of us, that day was our only contact, however remote, with the true horror of war. Imagine those people living in countries where brutal wars are fought every day. We have it damn good here. And we waste all our time playing with toys (like blogs? perhaps...)

This is from my journal, written 9/11/2001:

"So there's all this shit today (etc.)

and it was like a movie, like something that wasn't quite real.

but just now as I was staring at the sky, I found myself staring at a small red star, thinking I could see it moving, imagining if it was a missle aimed towards me. And I realized that this event had not really touched my life in any real way, other than gively me an intense, but impersonal fear. but as I stared at the sky looking for missles, i realized that this event has altered my perceptions, has changed my life.

in this totally minor way. i can't even fathom the people who were directly touched by this travesty.

i used to love gazing at the stars, but now I'm scared. I feel the fear that the terrorists tried to instill in the American public. If the goal was to scare me, us, Americans... it fucking worked.

we're very isolated in America. everything we know, everything we're ever been taught, has been taught to us from American standpoint. we only know what America teaches us or allows us to learn. sure there are people coming in and out of American, but for the most part, we're isolated. I mean, how much contact do YOU have with Afghanistan... Israel... Russia? I've been pretty well isolated, and I think most people have. "

This is from 9/11/2002:

"Every 30 million years or so, something cataclysmic happens in the world, eradicating 90% of all the living creatures in the world, then new species emerged. There have been eras traced through out history, from prehistoric amoeba type creature in the sea to the end of the rein of dinosaurs. What if our time is up? According to science we Homo sapiens have only been around for 100,000 years or so. But we’re also the first species with the built in ability of self-destruction.

Man has focused so much on the torture of other men over the years. We may unwittingly cause our own destruction. Maybe it’s time. Maybe that’s how it supposed to happen to eradicate all the evil from the world. Because whether we like it or not, there is a lot of evil in our world. Even in civilized countries. Saddam Hussein is not the only evil in the world. We have homeless people starving in the streets. We have people who abuse their children: they beat them, starve them, and rape them; children of their own flesh and blood. We have people who kill just to kill, people who kill for material objects, like drugs or money. These people end the life of other human beings for their own pleasure.

For years human beings have been perfecting the death penalty. We kill our own. There’s got to be something wrong with that. We fight our animal natures, trying to put ourselves above the nature that created us, and yet we are all still animals. We kill our own. We are callous to the lives around us. We kill flies without a second thought. We kill animals with our cars in scores on the highways we created that destroyed nature. We kill animals for pleasure.

It used to be that man hunted to survive; now we hunt for the thrill of the chase. Fishing is a recreation that kills animals, and yet no one would ever accuse a fisherman of being a murderer.

To humans, life below us is nothing. We are sacred just because we can think? If anything, our powers of thought make us more susceptible to evil. When we have the ability to think, we are automatically less connected to the divine nature of life, because we have free will. Lately, it seems like humans are moving further and further away from the divine..."

Moira at 10:50 AM :: Comments (6) :: « :: »

Fantastic post, Moira!
-- Dr. A.

Posted by: Mike Arnzen at September 11, 2004 11:57 AM

Thank you! :c)

Posted by: moira at September 11, 2004 01:29 PM

I appreciate reading your thoughts on the memories of 9/11. Beautiful post.

Posted by: Karissa at September 11, 2004 02:49 PM

Wow, all of which you listed is what I remind myself when I make decisions on trying to help others. Just try to remember even though we have that ability to consciously destroy humans have also proven to have the ability to better themselves and all that surrounds them, and in all fairness it is far more harder to create than it is destroy. I think as a species we may forget from time to time but in the end I pray we will fufill our purpose and find peace with ourselves and our the world around us. Never forget the good and bad events in our days that makes us feel alive.

Posted by: Hashim at September 12, 2004 02:26 AM

Karissa - Thank you again! :c) I'm waiting for you to start updating your blog again... ;)

Hashim - Thanks! And good point: we do have the ability to create as well as destroy. Thanks for reminding me because sometimes I forget. I pray we fulfill our purpose, too. And thanks for "crossing over." I'm working on that interview tonight. :c)

Posted by: moira at September 12, 2004 10:00 AM

Hehe, I'll get right on that, thanks! Sometimes I do need a kick-in-the-pants to update. =^o

Posted by: Karissa at September 12, 2004 02:24 PM
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