When I was a child, I wanted to be a movie star. To go after that dream, I dis some funny videos with my aunt in Ohio. When I was a teenager, I wanted to be an actor. So I decided to take some acting classes at Stage Right Performing Arts. When I was in college, I wanted to be a Broadway stage actor and win a Tony, and I took some challenging courses such as theatre history and production courses that included working on the sets.
But where is that really taking me?
Now I’m an adult and feeling a bit scared of the painful reality of school debts, the amount of taxes I have to pay from the money I earned, and the fact that I am still undergoing some of the rejections of my life.
Where does that all lead?
Well, the truth is failure is not where it leads me. There are many failures to come, but failure does not lead me to failure. The reason why is because that there are going to be a lot of rejections coming my way. It is painful, yes, but it is also something I can use to motivate me. Whenever I feel rejected by a theatre or a director, my family, my significant other, or even I would tell myself that each rejection is God’s way of saying that this is not the right place.
In other words, God has better plans for me. And He most certainly did! Why? Because even though there is some ugliness in my life (such as my current job), I really search for the beauty of it all. I look even deeper to where I really want to be. When I get a rejection, I get the feeling I did something wrong, or that there’s something wrong with me. It turns out that there is nothing wrong with me, but that maybe there is something more for me than just this amateur actor.
While attending college, one of my big dreams was to become a Tony-winning actor. However, during my junior year of college, I rediscovered that I was a good playwright, and even writing in general. I started seeing myself in a new light that I would’ve never expected had I not gone to college.
Since then, I have been writing blogs. I started writing my own novels and short stories. I wrote two articles for Autism Speaks, one of them being a huge success and has become popular on the Autism Speaks Facebook page to this day. I wrote a play on bully prevention, which will make it’s debut production in Ohio.
Now, there is something more in the future. I don’t want to reveal it as of yet due to my uncertainty of where it will lead me in the future. Let’s just say it might have something to do with writing plays.
I still love acting. I realized just recently how much I missed acting and how much more I want to be involved, but I also accept that I have many gifts. I was born to become a writer, a public speaker, a playwright, an actor, a singer, and a loving friend. There are probably more things about myself that I myself don’t really know about but I will find out more just by following my dreams.
When you follow your dreams, you think you already got it all planned out and you focus only on that particular dream. But then reality kicks in and you find out that it’s really hard.
Take my advice. When I dreamt of being an actor, I never knew this dream would lead me to something else. When I was rejected many times for a part in a play, I felt I had no talent as an actor. But then, thank GOD I was a theatre performance major because I wouldn’t have taken a scriptwriting course in my junior year of college. After that, I realized I was a really good playwright, and then I started opening up about my autism.
Opening up about my autism lead me to write and publish a successful article on Autism Speaks about growing up on the autism spectrum. That in turn lead me to speak publicly about autism awareness and bully prevention in schools and events. The article and my public speaking helped me gain some communicative skills and experience to talk to anyone that needs my advice.
Maybe someday all of this would lead me to acting, but only time will tell. Right now, I want to focus on my writing, my advocating, my teaching, and my success. I am already in the process of a theatre career, and that alone will probably lead to my dream as an actor. But because of that, I have other dreams.
Right now, reality doesn’t really scare me, because I have all these gifts that help me better understand life. My advice to you is that if you have a dream or if you never thought of a dream, start off with doing the things you are talented with. Either you know how to paint, invent machines, write reviews, or even play sports; if you are really good at these hobbies, just don’t stop doing it. Show it all off.
If you’ve seen Snoopy the Musical, there is a song called Don’t be Anything Less than Everything you can Be. The musical is fictional, but the song is true. Don’t be the moo if you can’t be the cow, or don’t be a tail if you can’t be the dog. If you can write, sing, act, or play sports, just do it! Because if you’re just working as a dishwasher or a waiter at a restaurant, then you should know your are more than just that.